When living with a life-threatening, chronic illness it is very (repeat VERY) easy to get ahead of yourself, to worry about the unknowns and to fear the future. Perhaps mingling in the knowledge of what lupus can do and has already done in your life, may have accelerated those thoughts for you. For me it has. I feel like the past ten years have been spent wondering how long it will be before something terrible happens again, which irregular heart rhythm should I take seriously, and are they damaging my heart?
How long will I have before my lungs require oxygen?
Will the continued muscle weakness and joint inflammation completely debilitate me?
Will the immunosuppressants lead to a life-threatening infection or cancer?
When and where is the next big hurdle … ?
On the other hand, I often wonder can this ...Continue Reading →