October 24 is the date of my upcoming wedding. This is a very exciting time and I cannot wait to marry my best friend. With that being said, I also have a lot of anxiety because after the wedding and honeymoon, we are going to try having a baby.
In 2016, it will be 10 years since the first time I was pregnant which ended in complete devastation. I will never forget sitting excitedly in the doctor’s office waiting to once again hear the heartbeat of my little peanut, who was 18 weeks gestation at the time. When my doctor told me there was no heartbeat, I remember screaming inside, pleading with God not to do this. It had not been a planned pregnancy, but I was excited and already loved this little being more than anything. Once the initial shock wore off, I felt so alone and so empty.
Fast forward a year to 2007 and the awful scene repeated itself. ...Continue Reading →